Gambler Chronicles His History of Gambling Addiction and His Road to Recovery

 

I started losing the money in the bookmakers, I used to go there everyday, this was generally fun and I would meet many other gamblers there and maybe have a drink after the gambling finished, although money was lost, this gave me some form of social life.

 

I then stopped going to the bookmakers and started gambling indoors on the internet.  I also started playing poker.

 

During the initial period I would win someday and lose others I keep well documented accounts, and I was very aware of what I was losing, this was very clear.

 

It finally got to the stage that I would not gamble through the week, but when work had finished for the weekend I would lose the lot before  returning to work on the Monday, I did not even win anymore.

 

The contract I was on then finished and then I did not have any income, and no money to gamble. This was the rock bottom and the point of no return.

I was self destructive in many ways, I actually stopped going out and Socialising, I distanced myself from all my friends, and kept pushing them away.

 

They were trying to tell me I had a problem, but I could not believe this, to me this was my life.  I thought I would make my living doing this and I did not have any time to spare or share with them.

 

Finally they did not come to my house anymore and give up trying to help  me.

 

I would not listen; this is a major mistake when your friends tell you something but you still ignore it.

 

My mother would come down my house and I would just say hello and go immediately to gambling, even the person who gave me everything was  now becoming not important, the only thing I needed was gambling.

 

It is very powerful and it takes over your life in so many ways.

 

I used to be a very open and fun person now I am what most would call a  recluse and obviously very sad inside

The story continues with How A Gambler Stopped and Why  page 4